I want to fall in love so well that the rationale clouds in my head won’t make a difference; the conviction out of it should be stronger than the gravity of a black hole…well, that’s what and how it should be…ideally. And as the legacy of love as such suggests, all the greatest lovers had that conviction, somehow.
It’s not that easy…I can’t override the rational mind and apply my emotions right away, cause at each moment, my rational mind is evaluating my emotions, checking them against a zillion things. WHY?
I hate to be so cautious, but I don’t know any other way.
It also happens because I feel I need to be ‘right’ about everything that I decide. The difference is, I should ‘feel’ the rightness rather than arrive at it or ‘calculate’ it. It is what we call intuition or going by the heart….hmmmm…see, I know how I need to be. Very well indeed, but I am not there yet.
Or is it that love happens despite all these things being there, and somehow your state of mind is a combination of rational and irrational (emotional) outlooks towards that one person…?
I think I need to take a breather and not wreck my brains out over all this…but I’m not thinking of all this out of context…there is a context… and there are constraints…constraints sounds so technical! There are considerations let’s say…, which I must look into. If they call it falling in love, then they should have known that some of us would fall with a parachute, because the impact would be too harsh if one falls anywhere else!
I need the sunrays of clear thought piercing the clouds in my head…
I’m staring in the mirror, and there is a stranger staring right back at me and I hope he tells me something about me that I have not yet known!
5 comments:
overriding rationale in the most irrational way- well, that's the best way to fall in love.. :)
n feeling rather than Calculating is wat ya should go for- heartfelt intuition- ya cud call it tat hershey :)
so there is a context, n there are constaraints-- > well, ma boy, i'm sure ya're experiencing wat almost everyone goes through wen they fall in love.. soooo keep it going , n dun think too much..
n lookin at the mirror would only confirm ya're the descendent of an ape, nothing else :):p sooo dun think, jus follow ya heart :)
I KNOW HOW IT FEELS MAN
But let go of all the inhibtions and tngs will turn around in no time :)
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it will happen isnpite of you being you ;)
and all the rationale and calculation and sometimes even the gut feeling will just go take a hike.
I believe I have gone through exactly what you're talking about. And at one point I wondered with all the rational thinking I did if I was even capable of love.
Thats what http://mindstilled.blogspot.com/2008/05/two-strongest-negative-feelings-we-as.html#links
was about....the more I thought...the more I couldn't love.
But like you said, "follow your heart". But as you get older, it's harder to have those moments where you see someone and go,"wow, that's the person I want to be with" Instead you'll find some one with the attributes you want, ask her/him (i'm not judging here. :-)) out for coffee. then maybe a movie..then maybe the museum...the beach...if you like the person you will keep meeting her (alright fine I think I know you're into girls!).
I wouldn't wait for lightening to strike. Love is simple. But we complicate it and make it difficult. All you need is a person with a good heart...it will be easy after that. :-)
I can’t override the rational mind and apply my emotions right away, cause at each moment, my rational mind is evaluating my emotions, checking them against a zillion things. - I guess this was not always... you got to this point cz of some other things..
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